Have we created a church of escapism, a place where we sing songs that declare Jesus is my boyfriend, where the narrative is that everything was crap till we met Jesus and now life is wonderful? Do we long for the Disney does Jesus experience?
For many disabled people we simply reach a point where nothing is working as we thought it should, where (now stop reading now if easily offended but carry on if you want to be grown up about this) everything is quite simply fucked!
For lots of us this system of Disney does Jesus is either now failing or never even worked in the first place.
We grew up with a system that tried to make sense of the crucifixion, a system that tried to use the same theology to make sense of disability when the truth is neither the crucifixion or disability can make sense. The crucifixion as described by Pete Rollins is "that which defies meaning". The crucifixion ruptures everything we think, for many people disability does the same thing.
Think of the Occupy movement, it came to say to the world, the system is broken, ruptured, the way we distribute wealth simply doesn't work.
Disability theology is the Occupy movement of the church, it is saying to the church the system is broken, ruptured, grace is not being fairly distributed and like the crucifixion it's self we can not dream up a theology to pretty it up and wish it away, we have to face the pain of it head on and find a way to live with it's reality before there can ever be an Easter.
When we stare at the Christ being crucified the temptation is to see all that horror and ask "where is God"? For many of us living in the shit of disability we are learning that rather than shouting "where is God"! We are slowly beginning to realise that he is here beside us in the shit. He's not a God that says there, there, I'll make it all better but a God that says, "I know". He sits with his people until the ambulance comes.
As Paul said "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord".
Jesus sits with us in the mess in the middle of the road to show us just that. He does not come to fix it all but to help us carry the weight of our suffering, to rob it of it's sting and turn it in to something we can use for others.
When Jesus shouted from the cross "my God, my God why have you forsaken me" we are told the temple curtain ripped in half, the temple curtain kept the holy of holies hidden. when Jesus cried out that divide was broken and God and man were brought together, God spills out and mixes with us.
Have you ever watched oil float on the top of a puddle and seen how beautiful that is, that is where God is in our pain.